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August 06 开车去了长岛,回来的时候还去了Manhattan在冷泉港开了个会。 It was quite an experience for me. I paid no attention to the gas level until my colleague and I encountered a midnight I-95 traffic jam. The car almost died on highway and eventually refused to run one-min away from a local gas station! After the improvement of Chinese railwayI almost forget how hateful it was to take the train between my home and college, so I decide to write it down before it fades completely. During the 35~48 hr travel, I usually sat/stood in the crowded carriage, watched other passengers going up and down, and witnessed the train became dirtier and smellier by our litter. Soon drinkable water ran out at each carriage, and later water for toilets was also depleted by the overloaded passengers. Men started to smoke at their seats if you did not excuse them to leave. The first time I got on the train from Beijing to Fuzhou marked the beginning of these messy treks. I naively carried many heavy books, and caught a severe cold on the way. I felt so exhausted that I would die halfway to fuzhou... When my parents received me on Fuzhou station, I was alive with the cold over, but they could not recognize me even though I waved at them continuously. The worst trips usually happened before and after every spring festival, when the heaviest traffic hits the railroad. Medical schools have shorter vacation, and it aggragates the grief. Usually it took 30 mins fight a way from the midpoint of an aisle to one end, because non-seat passengers immobilized the whole train. Once I could not push myself through the crowd to reach water or the toilet, a youth standing on the side teased me, "say 'excuse me big brother', and they will make room for you to cross!" Soon I tried and discovered what he claimed was true. Only one winter trip made me feel I would tolerate a bigger cram: my friend Minhui and I got on the train at beijing station near midnight, and noticed that the temproray train didn't have heating, just as we had heard of. The leaking green train with metal walls ran slowly on the dark plain throught northern china's freezing night. At 8:00 a.m. I was finally able to inhale freely and stopped worrying about becoming an ice pop. Summer is supposed to be less crowded and thus easier, but don't forget about nightmares before the magical torture on the train. Dealing with ticketing agencies was always annoying. I always worried a lot about the tickets, and always felt lucky if I was able to get one for home. Usually I could not get a bed ticket because there is only one train went to my hometown, which is the capital of Fujian province! To get on board, it was another humiliation for every human being. During one summer home trip, my student ID was torn because the woman at the station thought it was faked.. It costs me 40 yuan to beg a new and authentic one from the university, which innocently have the biggest share at "pseudo-certificate markets". Perhaps because I didn't whine much at home, my father refused to buy air tickets for me. He insisted that it is dangerous to fly, and proudly believed that it was a training process to experience the tough part of life. i was outrageous and yelled at him, "You have never taken any long-distance train, leave alone that in the busiest season, how can you be the right person to talk about 'the tough part'? Why don't you try sitting on a chair at home for 36 hrs to have a flavor? " (I wasn't very polite to my parents. At middle school, I appeared easy-going except for facing one person -- I debated with my father through almost all the lunches and dinners, probably because of my rebellious adolescence.) My outbreak changed the situation. My father started to help me get the bed ticket when I need to travel from Fuzhou to Beijing. It wasn't very easy. After numerous trials, he finally got the a street trick from insiders and able to get a bed ticket quite often (from windows! ). (It seems I benefits a lot from the qurarel... To some extent, he was right about the training process. Yes, it was such an experience for me to cherish, not just because it was difficult: I was able to talk to many kinds of people during the boring days and nights, especially when I didn't have a bed to lie down. Some of us became friends. I guess I wouldn't have interacted with this variety of people at college if I had flown across the country. And I was exposed to the villagers on the boundless plain in northern China, which I had got no idea about before. I also noticed that how beautiful Fujian's mountain area is, in spite of the bad traffic conditions. born and raised among 'the educated community' in a cozy city, I understood other part of my country better by traveling on the train. And as my father hoped, I could comfort myself by referring to how bad the train was, when I encountered some problems at that time. Now this function is weakened, because my good/bad memory about the trip becomes vague together. Rehearsing all these railroad indignities every semester, I swore that I would try to change the desparate situation in the future, either by donation, or by some other efforts. However, almost right after i left China, the railway was enormously improved without one bit of my contribution (if complaining doesn't count as contribution). Now it only takes about 20 hrs to travel between beijing and fuzhou, and there are more trains running between them. I haven't got the chance to taste the new schedule despite myself. 关于museum of natural history实验室一位同事非常推崇museum of natural history, 又听小白说那儿拍过一部电影, 于是上周就和她去看了。其实这个博物馆也就算collective,并不像想像中的那样让人耳目一新。可能我太picky了,毕竟二十多年来已经去过大大小小各种科技馆海洋馆博物馆纪念馆了。 想到那个同事比我大一圈,又有两个小孩我对他的评论也就释然了。收藏标本的制作水平倒是足以让中国同行叹服,非常生动逼真,难怪可以在这里拍 night at the museum(也许这些年中国在这方面也取得了很大的突破也不可知)。 昨晚看了看night at the museum, 比较搞怪,半夜看起来也有几分惊悚。感叹一下,很多年前,某圈功刚被取缔不久,中国出品了一部叫《宇宙与人》的科教电影。作为广大中小学生的一员,我自然也在前往瞻仰之列。且不说此片的背景和意图,就电影本身的艺术性和科学性而言,即使在多年之后重睹,也是非常出色的。由于出国过早而没有机会欣赏的朋友不妨抽空看一下这部难得的富有民族特色的科普片。 这部电影也说明中国人依然是非常擅长总结的。一百多年来,中小学的课本总编写得严谨无比,可以反复读很多遍。以致大学时读到某些新写赶写乱写的中文教材时,常常感到反胃,也为中文感到悲哀。但是也许正因如此,因福得祸,对于现代科学这个舶来品,我们面对 incomplete data 的探索能力还远远不够,或者没有在校园内得到训练,因此影响到了整个民族的科技原创力。(说实话在社会生活的其他方面我倒是观察到了中国人无穷无尽的智慧。) 和美国日本的基础教育相比,我觉得我所经历过的中国的教育或不够灵活散漫,或含有一些欺骗性,或不够实用,但总体上说,还是非常平等的。到大学一年级前,为你准备的所有知识都指着一条通向“光辉的顶点”的道路,每个人的领受力,偏好,以及记忆力都不同,但是这种堪称精英教育的道路却是人人有机会看到和涉足的。不会因为出身贫穷的原罪而早早关闭。 我总觉得中小学的启蒙太关键了。虽然近来万事蹉跎,回望那两所历史超出北大多年的中学小学,我在其中也许懵懂或不开心,自认还是得到了相当完整透彻的训练,虽然没有完全消化,至今还时常感受到其中的力量。 July 24 authentic fuzhou food (ZZ)http://user.qzone.qq.com/359291723/blog/1226739886 adapt it from my cousin's blog. These days it is hard to get an article about fuzhou cuisine with correct pics. New York, New York --a weekend for two tourists托一只大西洋上的来客的福,我终于看了 tourists' New York。 去meet another whittette 前先见识了一下夏天傍晚的harlem 125st, 比以前凌晨转公交去LGA 机场恐怖多了。因为预报说有雷雨,我们没有去中央公园的音乐会 (天气却很正常。。。)饭后特意坐上跨过east river的airtram. 向小白蹭了一晚w7x street 的hotel, 是我在美国住过的最简陋的旅馆了,见识了古老的需要向外拉门才能进去的电梯,还碰到了来自"a brother country, not just neighbor" 的receptionist, 我和小白因此分别获得香蕉一只.
American museum of natural history还不错, 下部电影准备看night at the museum
在macy's 逛了一会。how tourist-like we are! 因为没法搞到上女神之冠的票, 我们坐上staten island ferry, 远远的看了statue of liberty 和brooklyn bridge. 再逛华尔街。 晚上去了empire state building。 结论是:队伍很长, 夜景很璀璨, 洪鹏同学是我们基01旅游系统优秀的纽约地陪兼摄影,我和小白在他的指导下都玩的开心极了。可惜我把他仅有的那一张高楼夜游图照花了。。。 然后便是我们漫长的暗夜地铁之旅。 在纽约的川菜韩国墨西哥越南饭馆吃了饭,居然都想不起名字了。this is the aging effect. 需要写所以需要写游记。还喝了一种奇怪的cider. 买了很多水果,回到New Haven, 由于没有找希望中的wheel chair, 我们只逛了校园。我们还错过了campus tour, 我只好又在这个英国人面前班门弄斧了一下。英国人的敦促终于唤醒了我遥远的回忆,于是做了一餐晚饭。 July 14 天上的星星和地上的萤火虫hiking 3小时归来。天黑了,傍晚的云似乎都不见了。有点后悔今天没有去天文馆看星星。一两个月来,每个周二都下雨或阴天。 前两天第一次见到了萤火虫。按说我小时候还挺亲近大自然的,为什么就没见过呢?福州有萤火虫吗? July 13 终于去了那个istanbul cafeI had heard that the food is not turkish at all, but I still looked forward to dinning there. The decoration and music was very arabic to me. The cute waitress was a shy turkish girl. 吧台边上有一个高起来的小隔间,透过粉红的纱帘,可以看到堆放在毯子上的靠垫,应当可以席地围坐,令人浮想联翩。比如一千零一夜,比如在北京上学时去的新疆饭馆。那时的馕包肉是一种非常吸引人的食品,羊肉浇在一碗交叠的馕上,汤汁丰富,实在比类似的pizza美味很多。
如果没有文化的碰撞,哪来这样精彩纷呈的世界呢?语言的统一,并非减少冲突的决定因素;文明的同化,也不是消除仇恨的最好办法;单纯的民族优待,也许造成的反是更深的隔离。美国的黑人和白人讲一样的语言,他们之间的鸿沟却仍然明显得让人窒息;美国有无数的china town, little italy,如今也没有哪个民族提出独立的要求;而美国对某些少数族裔的无原则照顾,事实上造就了一代代无辜而没有尊严的人。再看中国,DaLai Lama raised a scary term called cultural genocide, 而在我看来,汉族内部的cultural opression 从来没有停止过。 哪一天能把讲主要的汉族方言,和说维语一样作为高考的加分条件(而不是单纯的按照血缘加分),也许我们可以说当代的中国文化已经变得强盛、平等和包容了。当然那个时候,大学的录取也将不再沿袭目前单一的考试模式了。希望这一天早一点到来,也许那时丰富多彩的方言还不至沦陷,成为为风语者中的密码。
法相唯识 学习认知心理学的同学们应该可以从唯识宗的理论中获得很多启发。It is dry for me though. June 29 strawberry picking and the fireworks showFinally did sth interesting last weekend. The dinner was good too. Saw lovely mixed-blood twins when we picked mulberries. June 12 The mahayana buddhist counterparts of Christian trinity--A peacemaker's thoughtsPrologue:
P.S. I should probably humble myself and keep silent as a semi-buddhist layman, to avoid the painful Karma in future, but I feel obligated to say sth about the similarities between different religions, after listening to a lot of statements I do not agree. I guess I cannot help being a peacemaker. I plan to start addressing my opinion from Trinity, so here I quote sth I consider subtantially similar.
For me, it is easier to accept Buddhism, because I was born arrogant and skeptical. The arrogance makes it hard to give up the ego and the ambition to find eternal happiness, and the skepticism means I do not trust someone else to lead my thinking. Even though supernatural beings could alter my life, I believe I have the freedom to think in my own way. Meanwhile, I am not intuitive enough to get rid of the arrogence and skepticism with appropriate timing. Fortunately, Buddhism take care of my little dignity by allowing me to start the exploration as an integral "person". According to Buddhist belief, the existence of deities is irrelevant for the enlightment, and we human beings are never dependent on them if we do not want to. As a buddhist, I do knee down before the statutes of buddhas and buddhisavas, but I do not worship them; ideally I would not beg for anything from them either. I knee down to respect them, because they try/tried to alleviate the sufferings all the concious lives have been experiencing; I knee down also to get rid of my pride, so that I can learn from others without bias. My future is on my hand, nobody else can tyrantly change it, if I don't give up. Buddha's teachings always encourage disciples to rely on themselves to manage their life, to discover the truth, and to eventually acheive Buddha's achievement; moreover, buddhism even admitted that some people can realize the truth even without hearing of buddha's teachings. How open-minded and accessible Buddhism is as a religion! June 10 虎纠福州100地名典故 http://5dxc.com/city/ShowNew.asp?id=3026&cityid=350100 百年前的福州 http://5dxc.com/city/ShowNew.asp?id=3247&cityid=350100 另一些老照片:http://hahn.zenfolio.com/p487910638 June 09 用于吓唬人的Gestern Nacht, als die Sterne glaenzten, wehte ein leichter Wind auf der Erde. Im Westen von der bunten Villa und im Osten von der praechtitgen Halle trafen wir uns. Ich hasse mich da fuer, keine Fluegel des Phoenix zu haben, um jede Zeit zu dir fliegen zu koennen. Zum Glueck sind unsere Herzen wie das goettliche Nashorn, fuer immer miteinander verbunden. Erinnerst du dich an unser erstes Treffen, als wir an dem Versteckspielen teilnahmen, nebeneinander sitzend, warmen Wein trinkend. Spaeter teilten wir uns in Gruppen ein, und spielten Raten im roten Lampenschatten. Es war schade, als der Morgentrommel schlug und ich im Palast arbeiten gehen musste. Seufz, war spaet aufgestanden, hetzte auf dem schnellen Pferd zum Sekretariat, wie ein vom Winde verwehter, wurzelloser Bueschel. June 05 Friday Symposium I went to NYU Medical Center for a day-long symposium about structure of the synapse. Great speakers always make me feel good about myself because they can explain things in a simple way. Therefore, I think I am still good at neuroscience. Nevertheless, the persimistic way to interpret my good feeling is: my knowledge about structural biology is still poorer than my understanding about neuroscience after staying in a structure-focused lab for years! What a shame! The good news is: It seems I am not a vampire any more. May 31 The vampire went to HartfordThe union station there look so obsoleted... The vampire visited Mark Twain's House first and she thinks Samuel Clemens' sarcasism is mimicked by many old professors here. A wealthy family like his could go bankcrupt all of a sudden. nothing is eternal even with a blossom-bringing pen... He went bankcrupt because of the investment to Paige compositor, which was faster but unstable, soon another type of compositer was invented and took over the whole market. Had a ride around West Hartford hilly area, and some nice chat on the road. The state capitol looked gorgeous in the sunshine before the twilight came!! The vampire is back to New Haven before dusk, happy and thankful. An interesting Reference: I Am a Boxer --By Mark Twain http://www.chinapage.org/world/mark3e.html I became a vampire.It seems I cannot tolerate the sunshine these days, so I have to get up early and stay inside during most of the daytime to avoid the strong ray... :( May 28 端午昨天听说端午时节的雨可治百病, 今天就在中午爬了一遍east rock. 有一点毛毛雨,居然在山脚下闻到清新的茶香。暮春的New Haven竟是这样的绿。相比之下人多树少的医学院真是辜负了大好春/夏光。 为什么吊兰要叫spider plant呢? May 27 喜爱阴天我在高纬度地区居住几年后似乎出现了夏季早醒的问题,在北京也是这样。不论夜里几点上床,太阳一照就早早醒了。现在的卧室又朝东,百叶窗的遮阳效果与安慰剂相比没有显著差异。 昨天早起的好处是下楼就捡了四件家具,室友看了也很满意。如果不是已经拥有,还可以搬回床、沙发和柜子。 幸而今天天气不好,终于睡到了八点多。 |
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